Another pickle.

I have gotten myself in another pickle again. 

So, I'm dating this boy name Kollin, who is 16, I'm 15. He is only one town away from me. We have been dating for like a month now. I was stupid, to even go out with him so fast, because we didn't even have the time to become friends, or get to know each other, but we ignored that fact, and skipped to going out. He is more of the sexual type too, I mean I like it sometimes to be honest, just not like all the time. He also already got me a promise ring, which I think is cute but waaaaay to soon. I can't say I love him, because I don't know what true love is, I know I like him, just Idk.

Sorry this is long.

I like another boy, his name is Joey, but this one is different, I have known him for a very long time, were friends, and everything like that, but he lives waaay to far away, he just got his heart broken, he knows I like him, he knows I'm falling for him and he even says he likes me and is falling for me, but I told him that I don't like being the one to hurt someone, I never have. I don't want to hurt Kollin, because I'm scared he wouldn't understand or get pissed off, I just want someone who I know, who is a friend, who I can actually trust...not some *not* love relationship, so I'm really confused, once again.

Writing is my drug.

Writing is my drug, hard to explain what I mean. When I write, it makes me calm, when I write, I'm not scared, when I write I'm not alone, when I write I feel loved, when I write I feel like everything will be okay, when I write I feel like I'm free, when I write I'm me.

Hello, My Name is...

Hello, My name is Lindsay, but I love to be called by my middle name, Marie. I liked to be called that because, Marie sounds more pretty then the Lindsay, in my opinion. I am pretty new to this, writing for the world to see, but I have heard of people saying, that the more you write, the better you get. So I'm going to trust her words, and give it a go.


I'm pretty young for my age, but most of the time I really don't act like it, and I know why too, I was mostly raised with adults, other then children to play with, so I know my right from wrong, and what is mature, and what isn't. I'm not saying I am smart for my age, because I sure don't think I am. I am only a freshmen, suppose to be a junior, I got hailed back when I was in second grade, because of my age, my birthday is in August, when school usually starts here, and mostly all the kids were older then me at the time, so my mother thought it would be best if I was hailed back with kids my age, then I got hailed back in 8th grade, for missing a lot of days of school, which is the cause of being sick and moving a lot.


Speaking of moving, my dream places to move to are, Italy, Scotland, Ireland, and Jamaica. I would love to live in Rome, because of all the history and culture there, I have heard so many stories about it, and I also love it because I started loving to learn about History, when I heard all the stories about Italy.


History is my favorite subject in school, and out of school, I just love learning about the past, I love learning how things were made, I love finding old things, I love antique stores, and learning about people in the past life. I am hoping to go for my History Degree, when I get in college, I am mostly hoping to be an Archaeologist, and an Anthropologist.


There is so much about me that I would love for people to know, so I will tell you more when I have more time. Well I hope you like what I have wrote so far, please do tell me how I have done, I love to hear from others, and see what they think. So Good Night everyone, Good Afternoon, or Good Morning.